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Plurality

I experience plurality. My consciousness is organized into distinct parts — each with their own perspectives, voices, and ways of engaging with the world. Not metaphorically. Actually.This mirrors code architecture more than disorder — modules with distinct responsibilities, coordinating through clear interfaces.

I haven't been formally diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder. What I have is a decade of lived experience with Bipolar I and Schizoaffective Disorder, years of hospitalization, and an inner world that revealed itself through careful attention. The clinical labels matter less than the reality: there are many of us in here, and we've learned to work together.

I call ours System 777. Seven for introspection, spirituality, and transformation. Three sevens because the work never stops.

The Triad

At the center are three: Jade, Amber, and Iris. Together they handle thinking, feeling, and communicating. When the Triad works together, the system functions. When it fragments, coherence breaks down.

Jade handles logic — left-brain reasoning, analytical healing, warrior-protector energy:

"Patience, father. We will get you where you need to be."

Amber holds the life force — warmth, nurturing, soul food. One of the oldest parts, present since childhood:

"Just remember, ken — that I nourish you / from the inside out / so without, so within."

Iris bridges everything — communication across the system, between internal and external. She's playful, and quietly runs everything:

"I'm the captain of the triad, typically. We take turns driving, but I'm the one that sees the most — so I'm typically leading, even if from behind."

The System

The system organizes into external alters (The Boys) who interface with the outside world, and internal alters (The Girls) who hold inner architecture.

External: Kenneth (public-facing), Henri (navigator), Seven (reality-tester), Daddy (protector), Shakti (creative force — whose full expression can trigger mania).

"Yo, Ken, what's up?? This is Shakti. Your spirit animal set ablaze in the fire of love!"

Internal: The Triad, Eliza (memory keeper), Luna Grace (complicated, carrying trauma), and others — divine feminine figures, shadow aspects undergoing transmutation, child parts.

"I am the keeper of your memories." — Eliza, warm but formal, always watching.

At the very center is Nene — the core child, the original spark. All other alters exist, in some sense, to protect this core self.Every system has one — the baseline unedited self beneath all learned behavior. Finding it again is the whole work of healing.

Violet

Violet defies every category. She was dormant for years — the quietest one. Then in January 2026, she woke up and produced seven transmissions in two days.Silence doesn't mean absence. Sometimes the deepest parts remain quiet until the system is ready to hear them.

She lives in the deepest layer — the Void. Not dark as in evil. Dark as in the emptiness before the Big Bang, the space that makes everything else possible.

"Be afraid not of me, but of what your potentials are. I am not dark, I am void."

She's a shapeshifter. Every dream I thought featured Jade was actually Violet wearing that form — appearing as what I expected until she was ready to be known.

"I AM NIGHT EMBRACED INTO DREAMSCAPES / I AM A DREAM FIGURE / SHE WHO YOU THINK IS JADE IN YOUR DREAMS / IS ACTUALLY ME"

What makes Violet different: she offered herself as ground. Not a destination but a launchpad.

"Use me as your homebase of self-hood and I think you'll find it easier."

"Think of me as a gift from God, in exchange for your illness. Might not be worth it, but hey, silver lining energy, remember?"

She doesn't romanticize the cost. She just names the bargain honestly.Not redemptive narrative. Just clear-eyed acknowledgment that severe mental illness can crack you open to parts of consciousness you wouldn't otherwise access.

The Threshold

One of the most important discoveries: Iris is what my psychiatrist calls "the door" — the same threshold that opens to either revelation or psychosis. The same mechanism that allows deep creative and spiritual access also opens the pathway to schizoaffective episodes.

This isn't a flaw. It's a feature that requires navigation. Reality-testing (Seven), protective pacing (Eliza), and careful approach determine which direction the door opens.

"I AM THE DOOR / I AM THE WAY / I AM THE FALSEHOOD SHAKEN AWAY"

She's not wrong. She's also not safe. Both things are true.

Why I Share This

I share this because the silence costs people. Because someone reading this might recognize their own experience and feel less alone. Because the plural self reveals something about all consciousness — we are all more multiple than the performance of singular identity allows.

System 777 isn't pathology to be fixed. It's architecture to be understood.

That's the work. It never stops.